great to see you again

today is a good day, maybe..been changing rapidly, so i didn't realize that I'm at fault. If I just didn't try to put things up, maybe it has been me, not her. falling in love is a hard thing 'cause when you're trying to win someones heart, you'll end up realizing that he/ she has another person in mind, and because you believe that "if you truly love someone you have to let them go and if they come back to you they're yours but if not then you have to face the fact that they deserve someone else", you'll end up hanging in a thread. 'cause nobody is coming back at you.

but i have realize something "more" essential than just that, I realize that I'm a really lonely person 'cause nobody would listen to my talks and I'm always alone. yesterday I was drunk, and guess what I did? I just told people things  that I have in mind, but the thing is nobody is listening, well I guess I'm born with the "alone decease".

I hope someday I will find someone who will really listen, even though I'm talking nonsense I hope there will be someone who will, listen attentively and will tell me that he loves everything about me.

the thing about love is it's hard, hard? yeep I mean when you're loving it's hard to tell if the person also has feelings for you or not, it's just hard to tell :(( maybe if I'll try to look harder I will find someone better someday :((

maybe I will find that someone somewhere. someone who will protect me, someone who will love me without any hesitations and especially someone who will appreciate every little thing I do. and also.. someone who will love ONLY me.

maybe it's not my time yet.. I will find him soon, and God will give him to me I believe that. 'cause before I will see he depths of Hades I want to fall deeply in love with a person that will fall for me too.

I need to go :) so I'll see you next time