the worst feeling ;[ [ "LOVE"

falling in love? is definitely not my thing, I like to Isolate myself with that kind of feeling..I don't want to be like others, too obsess, but this past months.. I have been having this "heart trembling" feeling.. something like I was gonna drown, because of happiness. And I'm always thinking, thinking about this human ;]] and I'm loving it, and so to mention, I am loving him..

who he is? who he was? or who will he be? I don't know.. I just know that he's a common Man with common everything, but the worst part is, he's in love with someone else.. someone else that is not me ;[ and will not be me.

Every time I remember the sound of the undying melody coming from his fingers, it's mesmerizing, it's like I wanna touch him, and tell him how much this feeling is hurting me :[[. I want to tell him something, but I can't.. this side of me.. i can't show it to anybody.. ;[[

I will now say goodbye to this person as I end this post ;[[ I will forget the feeling, when I'm with him. I will try not to show it to anyone else. and I will pretend that this feeling never occurred ;[[.

so goodbye person whom i love.. for this past months ;[[ goodbye trembling feeling of happiness, and goodbye mesmerizing melody that touches my heart ;[[

so jaa~ see you ;[