missing ?

 I'm missing something

that's what I thought while I'm at my classroom, sitting

on my chair and looking at the window.

I'm not usually like this, before.

I've changed, and is constantly changing

for some reasons I don't know the cause.

maybe this is just an effect of my "Gullible-ness"

I'm supposed to hate life, living and everything

but I don't understand...

WHY!?

WHY!?

why? did I changed?

why do I have to change?

I don't know what to do anymore...

I'm confused..  and I'm doubting my self..

I'm afraid, that if this will go on

I will loose my sanity and go wild.

The only thing I can ever tell now is that

I'm, I'm Missing something....

something important.

something I can't live without...

something forgotten....

it's something I can't tell..

but I will soon...

I hope it'll not be to late

for me to realize that...

because for now?

I can't really tell, what it is.