hey, you!

You know what?? you're a fuckin' shit bastard..

I really despise you! you fuckin` arrogant shit!

all I can say is FUCK YOU!

and everything you do!

I HATE YOU!

Today.. I felt like crying..

but I'm too tough to do it. :<

I.. I was alone.. I was fighting alone..

why did I just realize that now?

I'm back to the me, who like to fight alone..

I'm back to being.. emotional..

I'm back to the sickness that I was trying to cure...

I never realized it until now...

why did I just stumble.. and bleed again??

how did I do that..

though I'm sharing pretty smiles.. everywhere..

I feel lonely inside...

I think nobody understands me..

I hate this side of mine!

but still... I can't take it away.

I have to live with it..

I hope I evolve into something new.. soon..

I won't involve myself in anything for now..

`cause I will be depressed again..

and I will have that heartache.. backache

head ache and many ache again.

which  I hate the most...

I should have another journal from now on..

`cause I have to write my feelings.. <:

though blogging was not bad.. <:

it's just.. that.. I have to keep something in private

maybe I'll write it.. as a story.. <;

i'll say.. bye bye for now. :)