guilt

so the thing is, ummm.. well you see.. umm

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gaaaah! I can't explain it

so what happened is, my cousin asked me for a favor

yesterday , he said "yeng, himoi ko ug letter bi kanang

pwede pa request para sa akong form 137" --->

(eng. trans. : Yeng, can you make me a request letter so that I can

get my form 137) then I REFUSED! 

my reason for refusing is, IT'S not my fucking problem and I said that

I don't know how to right a letter like that.. >;[[[ and I said harsh

words like *why did you just do this things now.. and not the

other days, the deadline is tomorrow.. blah.. blah blah..

so I think I hurt him.. I deeply hurt him..

and though I said that kinds of things, about him

I STILL MADE THE LETTER! 

but when I woke up, my dad told me that he

went somewhere.. and blah.. blah..

I never thought that he'd go to the province.

and stuffs like that.. I was just told by his younger brother 

who's still here now.

I FEEL LIKE SHIT

I FEEL GUILTY!!!

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and I think that this is ALL my FAULT!

well it is.. and now I realize that

he is a NICE person but I 

NEVER CARED to realize it

tsk, gaaaaah! 

shit, my conscience is 

trying to occupy my thoughts!!

ummm. 

ok it's my fault.

I'M SO SORRY 

:(((((

I'm very very very sorry

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PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!!