a very sad moment :(

hello there, it's me again well you see I'm not that well, not physically but mentally and emotionally.. a while ago me and my mother, have a fight.. well it's common to us well we always fight. 'cause of simple things and I realize how much I hate myself for being born.. I hope that I didn't even become me. I hope that this life of mine was just a big dream... and when I wake up...this will all be gone. I hope. but I know that this is the reality. so tomorrow I dunno if it'll be on morning or in the afternoon but one thing is for sure I'll try to.. escape.. I mean I'll try to commit suicide. but unlike the hardcore ones who do it in their houses, mine will be an accident. so it'll look good.. I hope that it'll turn good. and also I hope you'll pray for me. and I also hope that God will forgive me :(( so.. I'll write something to you if nothing happened :)) but if something did I'll not be able to write to you for a while or even forever, so goodbye for now :))